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today,
is a special day for my dearest friend.
but he says hes unhappy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YXP!!
when there's nobody's around,
there's always me (:
love ya sunshine <3

Labels: (:, birthday

was out the whole of yesterday,
that i was so tired when i got home.


met in a mini car accident on my way to school for singing training,
and got my gum bleeding cos i knocked onto something.
so i was late for training, sorry peeps.

dexter & chay were on attachment in orchard,
and dex got a few of us down to play the board games in the shop.
(dexter, leonardi, timothy, richard, malcolm, chay)
it was kind of funny & stupid at the same time.
and i suck at games, as usual.

while they went off for late lunch,
i left to meet mathiaus and his friends at cashstudio.
(mathiaus, andy, leslie, shengde)
his crazy kakis were like attempting all the powerhouse songs like nobody business.
it's so pretty funny to see them in the "oh my gosh, im dyingggg" kind of look.
hahaha.

then we went off to have dinner & hang around orchard road.
it took quite awhile before they decided to meet aniszah & her friend, hudah, @ indochine bar.
but they were sitting on another table as there were too many of us,
so we were talking among ourselves.


time for a break (:

Labels: (:, friends, outing

I AM GOING TO GO VERY VERY VERY FAAAAAT.

i have been munching on chocolates this few days,
thanks to my colleague who just return from her trip to australia.
thats it luh.



and i heard this somewhere recently:

the best way to remember your girlfriend's birthday
is to forget it once.
(:



the last random thing today,
I NEED TO SING!

Labels: random

im speechless about how bored the 3 days have been.
but i was glad my colleague was on leave & i had the whole space to myself,

Labels: work

YES, I AM GOING TO LEEHOM'S CONCERT !!!! :DDDD

1st November, 8pm @ Indoor Stadium
and tickets are booked (:
the concert is 9 days before my birthday,
wheeeeee.

Labels: (:, leehom, music

new featured (:
just as i was listening to raymond's new songs,
i discovered this one.

someone, please sing this duet with me!


林峯 & 泳儿 - 明天以后
Raymond Lam & Vincy Chan - After Tomorrow

泳:在你的記憶裡面有一個我
V: there's a part of me in your memory
在你最痛苦的時候陪你度過
that will keep you company through your bad times
難過過了天晴朗了我就走
and i'll leave once you're better

峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
R: you gave me hope and saved me from my pain & loneliness
在你的面前我不必保留
i have nothing to hide in front of you
還來不及對你說遲到的我的心動
but i never had the chance to tell you how i feel

泳:你的好你的壞
V: everything good and bad about you
峯:我的脾氣你最懂
R: you know me the best
泳:我不要你來心疼我
V: i dont need your sympathy
峯:我不要你離開我
R: i dont want you to leave me
合:明天的以後我們會懂
B: we'll know after tomorrow
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟
the failure of our relationship will make us stronger

**
泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
V: what i feel for you is more than love
峯:因為有你
R: because of you
給我勇氣給我(用不完的運氣)
i have all the luck and courage
其實也想好好愛你
and i really want to love you
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心 (峯:我不怕會傷心）
V: im afraid i'll still hurt you in the end
R: i'm not afraid of getting hurt

合:對不起我對你
B: sorry,
再好再親密都不能在一起
no matter how close we are, we cannot be together
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
R: and you end up with someone else
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一 (峯:我並不是你的唯一)
V: i will find the right one someday
R: im not the right one for you
合:還微笑祝福你
B: and wish you well wholeheartedly
**

峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
R: you gave me hope and saved me from my pain & loneliness
在你的面前我不必保留
i have nothing to hide in front of you
泳:我從來沒對你說壓抑的我的心動
V: i've been hiding all my feelings for you

峯:我的好我的壞我的脾氣你最懂
R: you know everything good and bad about me
泳:我不要你來心疼我
V: i dont need your sympathy
合:明天的以後我們會懂
B: after tomorrow
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟
the failure of our relationship will make us stronger

(Repeat**)

泳:愛情總讓人折磨
V: love is always tormenting
峯:所以我們才選擇
R: therefore we chose
合:做比情人更好的朋友
B: to be better friends than lovers

(Repeat**)



okay, another one of a kind translation by me.
there's another cantonese version that i love equally much (:
shall post it if i have the time.

Labels: lyrics, music

some people just have to spoil someone else's mood somehow.


why cant you let me be in my happy mood a little longer?
i hate you.


it's not like you derive pleasure out of it.
i'll not even dislike you, not to say hate,
if you really feel happy after all this.
but no, it doesnt gain you anything!

im sad to say,
but it makes you sound so sick & twisted.
cos you get nothing out of some nonsense.

i know what you did,
to cover your lies.
and i was your scapegoat.
i know, seriously.

and i also know what you did,
to earn those achievements.
you might not be where you are,
if i stood up.

this is the last thing i will EVER do for you,
to bury this secret.
you're not my friend,
not anymore.

Labels: ):, friends

at this exact second,
of this exact minute,
of this exact hour,
of this exact working day,
of this exact week,
of this exact semester break......













MARKS THAT IM HALFWAY THROUGH INTERNSHIP!!!
HOOOOORAY :D

Labels: (:, internship

i really have to say,
im awfully disgusted.


i knew the answer from the start,
but i just want to hear it from you.
you're given a chance to tell me the truth,
to prove yourself worthy as a friend once again.
but you blew it off.

that answer,
makes me really sick.
it LOOKS like the nicest reason to use,
and it looks harmless.

but no,
it's laughing right in my face.
i can see it!
this world looks so superficial,
with these people around.

look at me like im miss evil,
i do not care.
i have to say what i have to,
because i just want to be honest to everyone around me,
whether i like you or not.

Labels: ):, friends

results was out this morning.
i was so so so afraid,
but i HAD TO see it just as the clock strikes 9.
i was oh so relieved,
I PASSED.

SOM scared the crap out of me,
and i was contented with the grades.
GPA increment, i smiled (:

im also glad most of the people i spoke to,
did relatively well.
congrats to all (:
people who didnt,
take it as a blessing in disguise okay ?
something good will be coming your way.

saw joakim when i was out for lunch,
and i was so blind, i almost didnt see him.
sorry i didnt have time to stop by.
please start appearing on teevee again.

--------------------------------


to mr anonymous,
i hope you can stop whatever you're doing immediately.
i dont think you need me to drill some sense into your head,
YOU ARE ATTACHED.

do not try to harm her, in any way.
i will not allow you to do it,
im not gonna let history repeat itself,
and definitely not let you two-time anyone.

im only sorry that i gave you the wrong idea,
and i was just being a friend.

dont dare me,
im wishing to keep your name confidential.
it doesnt matter if you see this as a threat,
but im firm this time.
our friendship was long shattered,
i have nothing to lose now.

cheers to you (:

Labels: (:, random, school

Day 1 & 2 - Data entryyyyy
yes, as you can tell.
there's nothing much to do.
i tried to make the best out of it already,
boo ):


Day 3 - Inventory
this is just as boring though,
but i kind of know what types of events they have been doing.
(based on doing those inventory checks.)
yet, another day passed.


Day 4 - On my own
seriously, i didnt do anything much today.
it was like my own personal time in front of my laptop,
doing my own stuffs.
nobody in the office bothers me.
it's like a day slacking.


Day 5 - Charles & Keith
attended a meeting at charles & keith's office.
apparently, the company is planning an event with charles & keith,
and i saw the bosses!
the sense of rich people is really indeed different.
their showrooms of shoes were like oh my goshhhh.
what an experience (:

Labels: work

yesterday's performance was quite a success (:
at least, i did my own part well.
it was weird though,
facing 500 people but yet i was so calm.
i would say, almost close to no fear at all.
what an experience.

after my performance i was told to take a greater part of the finale.
previously, i was just told to sing the first verse,
then im supposed to "hold on to the mic, but dont sing into it."
and it appeared to be quite an insult.
then, i was told to appear first and also to lead through.
what a change.
things can really be practical,
and im glad i was prepared.

however, my toe is hurting like nobody's business currently.
before going for my final rehearsal & performance,
i had a bad cut & my toe was bleeding like crazy.
but i didnt have time to attend to it,
so i just put a bandage & went off in 3-inch heels.
i had to act normal throughout the thingy,
which was quite tormenting.
nobody actually realises,
amaaaaazing.

im glad it's over (:

Labels: (:, performance

im reeeeeally in love with the silence (:



well, im not talking about the silence in the atmosphere,
whereby nobody's talking kind of thing.
it's the silence within.
the peaceful kind,
and that sort where i dont have to say much.

cut the crap,
i know what you're thinking.
this is not me trying anything funny okay.
im just not like you,
so stop trying to figure out, guess, assume or whatsoever.
im NOTHING like you (:
(and im happy about it.)

it's peaceful, cos things that were once so upsetting,
dont really matter anymore.
im not affected by anything said or done anymore,
everything's just a smile away.

---------------------------------------------

Mr. R,
thank you.

i dont think i need to explain much,
we get the point (:
please rest, skinny thing.
im waiting to hear it again.

Labels: (:

To Mr. N.,

Number? Thanks but no thanks. Nice meeting you anyway (:




Period.

Labels: random

saturday's rehearsal was all right,
but for a perfectionist, it's definitely never good enough.
i guess it'll turn out okay on the actual night,
oh well.

im feeling fine these days as i have been left alone.
theres finally more time to focus back on my second life - MUSIC.
i havent been concentrating on singing & dancing for quite awhile,
and im glad im back on track.

ive also decided to lose those fats,
haha.

Talk to me
you speak with me
don’t sink before you rise baby
don’t fade away

You hesitate
you seem to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away

Who’s to say
we’ll be ok
we’re gonna make it through the night
don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
cause we’re the same

And I know that we’ll will never change
look I bought your favourite ice ream
I don’t want to see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same baby
just talk with me
cause’ I want you to stay here with me

im into meaningful lyrics once again (:

Labels: (:, lyrics, music

Day 1 - sleep mode
i did nothing at all today.
slacked, stoned and slacked again,
today's a total waste of time.
all i wanna say is:
copycat copycat copycat copycat copycat

Day 2 - okayyyyyy
it's a nothing much day once again.
was taught once again how to cold call,
and even had a trial.
i think i sucked badly at it, yeah.

Day 3 to 5 - DOWN
got hit badly by the flu virus,
so no work.

Labels: work

having a new featured song, for now.
ive been watching a new drama and this is one of the song on it.
i shall do you a favour, if you dont understand cantonese (:


Lam Fung - Ai Bu Gou
(Raymond Lam - Insufficient Love)




收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右
it's beneath my eyes and has been ambiguous
爱猜到没有
did you realise my love
愉快玩笑后 能全然退后
after all the fun, still being able to withdraw myself
你开心就够
as long as you're happy


这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
this kind of feeling is so close, it's beyond words
假使讲了你听到后 或会走
even if i tell you, you might still leave
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
this kind of love is rare, almost does not exist
成全 衷心祝福然后 就放手
i give you my blessing, and let you go


放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
let go, let go of everything, give the both of us freedom
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
let go, it's not that i dont love you enough
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
let go, give it my all, i'll still have you as a friend
已经 已经足够
it's more than enough


遥远是宇宙 静静在背后 去看守就够
i'll watch you silently and from afar


这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
this kind of feeling is so close, it's beyond words
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
and i wanted to hold you close
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
this kind of love is rare, almost does not exist
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
no matter how much i dont bear to, i let you go


放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
let go, let go of everything, give the both of us freedom
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
let go, it's not that i dont love you enough
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
let go, giving it my all, i'll still have you as a friend
已经 已经足够
it's more than enough


放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
let go, there's no end to my solicitude
放手 期望你幸福什么都有
let go, hoping you'll get all the happiness you can ever have
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
maybe the love is strong and deep, but i've seen it through
放手 至可拥有
let go, is how i hold on



i do think the translation is crappy,
but it's even harder to translate cantonese lyrics than mandarin.
oh boy, bear with it.

I LOVE THE SONG! (:

Labels: lyrics

you know what,
im feeling so much better now.
life should not be wasted on things that hold you back.
im gonna keep on moving.
i can never be down for too long,
thats not me.

you just wait,
i'll be stronger in no time.




music & dance is life.

Labels: (:

and this is once again drafted previously,
it's posted so to pen down my thoughts & memories.



the feeling of losing you keeps coming back,
again and again.
but the fact is i lost you long ago,
so what is it that im feeling now?

--------------------------------------------

im like every other human,
my life is not only about love.
so whenever i say i love you,
please, stop thinking it's some bgr thing.

i dont have so many hearts for so many guys,
for goodness sake.
i just got over COMPLETELY from one,
but it doesnt mean i'll die if i dont fill this spot right away.

it's been friendship im talking about,
and dont ask or try to get anything out of me.
if you realise it's you,
im happy for you.
that shows that you still have a heart.
then what's next?
you either do something, or you do something!

i hate it when things are hanging,
neither here nor there.




period.

Labels: friends

well i dont really have anything to blog about.
im just here to ensure people who reeeeally cares,
that i am okay (:

was told to report at work only at 11am.
but when i reached the office,
i was sent home cos i looked too sick.
my boss even told me not to go if im not well tomorrow.
he's a mr nice guy (:

i am chatting with my dearest friend, angel.
after like 76256183026 years.
she's finally got a boyfriend,
and they are so sweeeeet.
im so happy for you, sweetie.
(though im also very envious, haha.)

one thing left on my mind,
my busy schedule is screwed.
when singing trainings are not planned,
i am stressed.

performance next saturday,
i dont know what to expect :/

Labels: (:, friends, stress

many people asked, "why did you disappear for so many days?"
i told them, "i wanted some time on my own, and this is a test on how much people needs me and how much i need others."
any normal being will see this as the so-called attention seeking.
most people thought i was just being the usual emo,
(someone please define emo to me, please.)
but attention seeking never strike me at all, not a bit.
im serious.

all i thought was to give myself a challenge.
and this challenge is not all about me,
i wanted to test out the human nature.
then you will ask me, "what for?"
i cant explain.

i just want to see the world in another perception,
in a way people will not see it in.
the human mind is just so complex, yet so interesting.
it's like a world on its own.
how does people have feelings?
how does feelings affect people?
how does feelings control the mind?
and i wonder.

what is emo?
what does emo have to do with me?
emo is not equivalent to emotional.
i think the current world is getting things all wrong.

then i began to wonder why am i emotional.
as i was sorting out my thoughts,
i came to realise it was due to sensitivity & being observant.
you tend to see too much things,
things people might neglect but still obvious to yourself.
then you start pondering over it,
when it gets too much, you find yourself inside this world of your own;
dwelling into your own thoughts.

im still searching for a way to turn this characteristic into a positive one,
negative feelings make one sick.
maybe thats why im getting it too often.
but when i get sick, i start to think deeper,
and i get out of my negative emotions,
just like now.

if you think this post is emo,
then i guess you're not so much of a thinker,
you see things on the surface.

well, i can prove once again that im not your kind of emo.
i smiled, cos im glad i am not that old me.
the one i had missed so much because i was unhappy to be the present me,
as i have to start thinking of others before myself.
now, it's different.
i've straighten out my thoughts,
the present me can be happier.

if i really lost a friend to the nonsensical emoness people talk about,
then i guess that's not a real friend.
maybe i should be glad i see it through early enough,
maybe if you see this post, you might understand things better.

you dont need many good friends,
and im not that kind that have many friends around me.
because, if you're my friend, i will want to treat you well wholeheartedly.
maybe we are different.
i can give my entire time to a few people,
as long as they treat it well.
i can take the burden & share the happiness of my loved ones,
even if i am in the greatest pain.

for once, i feel that im not living for others.
everything became meaningful.
happiness is a chain effect,
if i can make just 3 persons happy and they can spread the joy,
i think it can make the whole world a better place.

if me losing you makes you happy,
i can smile once again.
thanks, my friend.

Labels: (:, friends, love

(i drafted this previously, but i think i still should post it.
though im feeling okay now.)



i've got your message.
the sudden coldness and change of attitude,
i think i get it now.

it's something i know from the start,
but i never wanted to admit.
i thought it was just me, but now i guess it's a fact.
i forced myself to pretend everything's the same,
i hold back those tears while talking to you,
even when i type "haha" or "LOL".
but who am i deceiving?
we both know, it's over.

i never cared what others have got to say,
but it's proven once again that it didnt matter.
our friendship is as brittle as this.
i dont even know what happen,
and whatever happened, did break us apart, badly.

i guess it's my fault,
i saw us drift apart, but i didnt know what to do.
i put a strong front, and never let you be able to see through me.
i thought i was maintaining everything well,
but things got out of hand.

im sorry for whatever got you unhappy,
im sorry i wasnt a good enough friend,
im sorry you had enough of my nonsense,
im sorry for everything.

thanks for the memories,
all those good & bad times you brought me through.
for a moment, i thought it could go a long way,
but time flies, and it ends here.
nevertheless, i'll still be there whenever you need me.

im gonna miss you so badly,
but im gonna give you your peace & freedom.
for i dont think im needed here anymore in your world.
anything, for you to be happy.

lastly,
i love you.


(for the last thing, i wish i was dreaming.
please tell me i got it all wrong.)

Labels: ):, friends

sick, sick, SICK.
I AM SICK, AGAINNNNN !
oh crap :/

this song keep playing on the radio in the office,
tsk.

Labels: lyrics, sick

not on purpose that i blogged so much today
its just so happen that i had nothing to do in the office,
so i decided to upload some peektures & the post about first week of work.

today has been fairly good for me,
i have spoken to people i have spoken to for a very long time.
i should probably find more of such time doing it,
they make me smile (:
thanks to ing, xiaoou, dolphin, yangxiaopang & eric.
but i still miss xiaomi.
not forgetting bala & donal who brought some entertainment to me in my boring day at work.

but im currently still stressed out about singing training.
i dont know what to do,
when my schedule is so tight.
it's not compromising at all,
and nobody can do anything.

im starting to make it a habit not to look for anything to talk about problems.
i think people out there are sick of this shite.
and i dont know whats their definition of emo,
being sad is emo ?
what the rainbow&stripes.

i dont even think im emo at all,
(just that people keep telling me so.)
im just someone with more problems or obstacles to face,
but i guess people out there are living in their wonderful lives and will not understand.
if you're sick of me, tell me straight.
no honesty, no friendship.


some people can just make me smile without doing anything,
it's the heart i see.

Labels: (:, friends

Day 1 - this is it?
reported to work on time, but i sat at the desk from 930am to 11am --- STONING.
the staff is late like omg.
then i did a few mini task here and there.
1pm, im dismissed.
the entire company has an event to run,
no time for us.

Day 2 - what in the world...
reported on time once again, though the staff all told us they'll be late.
but, the boss told us to be on time!
in the end, stood outside the office from 930am-1030am --- LOCKED OUTSIDE.
came in, and slacked.
in conclusion, done a couple of teeny weeny tasks for the entire day.

Day 3 - like finally.
finally, there's some things to be done.
did several sourcing, quotations & data entry (:
i have to say, i do not like inefficiency (this includes, from people around me.)
just realised the only time i dont stone, is when im doing work.
but i happen to find a person that does,
seriously, what the rainbow&stripes.

Day 4 - i hate you, ugh.
i came into office with a flu,
and it's thanks to someone.
the entire office was freezing cold for the past few days,
but that someone felt nothing at all.
that's how considerate.
i need a change in seat, the aircon is in my freaking face!

Day 5 - oh boy.
did a little admin work,
but i dont like cleaning up someone's leftover crap.
gets me all moody,
affects everything for the entire day.
and nobody understands, period.

Labels: work

the birthday fruit cake (:

and what a candid shot.
spastic queen, indeed.


the security guards are seriously the joke.
and hongwei just keep snapping in my face !
rawr.

a random shot (:

birthday girl, suern (:

birthday boy, derek (:

happily ever after ! <3


credits: suern & hongwei

Labels: (:, photos

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BA_COMM; choy performance (:
2E204&E506; my stagewerkz competition <3
TB01&02; last day together
TOP8; stagewerkz competition <3
BEATTYCLIQUE; charmaine's birthday (:
4E506 ; teachers' day 07 (:

2005 & 2006 & 2007 & 2008 & 2009
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